Yuhuu..

Hello.. It's been a while.. ROFL.. My Bad.. It's been years since my last post..

It's hard to write blog especially when you not like it. Yes, I admitted it. But occasionally I like it. It help me to express my feeling and thought of certain event that occurred in my life. And sometimes it relief a little bit of the burden.

I'm aware by writing online many people can read it even if the post marked as private so not everyone can access it.
So for the purpose of everyone sake I make it annonimous for the name of the person or event that occur in the post.

Still it's a concern for me. So I'll try not to write more personal stories from now. But I'll try to write a short stories in Indonesian to compensate it.

Well I hope I can fulfill it and make a better post. Nice to see you.

Best Regards,

paperzz85
Where life is a piece of paper.

HURT

Huehehe.. helo guys.. its been a while.. I'll be honest with you. It's hard to write a blog.. haha.. or maybe it's just me who have it.. hahaha.. but today I'll do my best to express what I thought and feel in these few days.. But 1st I want to say it's HELL.. especially this week.. well.. I think a whole month is the right one..

But I wont discuss it.. Today I want to discuss about my feeling.. to be specific is HURT.. well.. I try my best to be straight forward with you guys.. but it will be a hard one.. Ok lets start..

My "MAGICAL" motorcycle

Hmm... Hello.. It's being very long since my last post.. wkwk.. I'm sorry about that.. hehe.. well.. I hope I can start blogging again..

Today my post is about my Motorcycle.. I own this motor around 2008.. I buy it from my old college friend.. He only used it for couple of month and than just idle it in his garage.. He tried to sell it but both my friend and the buyer never cross a deal with the price.. then I ask it and amazingly he accept it.. So after pay in cash the motorcycle is mine.. wuuhuuu..

Akh.. by the way.. my motorcycle is Suzuki Raider 150cc.. Thailand Build Up.. In Indonesia its known as Suzuki Satria FU 150cc.. people says its the same.. but for me they are different.. not just where its build.. but I feel different when riding Satria FU.. well maybe it's just me..

Can I "Fall In Love" Again ??

30 Sept. 2011

 Hello guys!! It's been quite a while since the last note i wrote to you.. I hope you all are in good health and have a great time.. 

Today I'm gonna tell you about something which I never thought will come again.. hehehe... Yup I didn't expected it will came to me in this short time.. I'm talking about "LOVE"..

Yes.. I think I'm in LOVE with someone.. Yup.. I'll said it again.. I'M IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE.. well it's up to you if you didn't believe it..

I never thought I will fall in love again after so many things that happened before.. well this "LOVE Story" also have a problem but I'll tell you later..

LATE

Hi... i see you again.. hehe.. it's being quite sometimes didn't write anything.. I hope you all in good shape and in happy mode.. hehe.. Today I'm gona talk about late.. it's not about my bf late her period or something like that.. its about my work..hehe

Past this week.. I often came late.. sometimes more than 30 minutes.. haha.. my record of late was 45 minutes... wkwk... I happened when i forget to bring my wallet and late to realize it... I realized it when I reach traffic area.. wkwk... so I stuck in traffic jam to get my wallet..

Blank

hi.. I see you guys again... hehe.. I hope you have a great weekend.. haha.. a bit late for that I guess.. 


Today topic is blank.. I'm not talking about computer blank screen but about what I'm thinking right now... since this afternoon I can't think anything... not a single word pop out in my head... weird huh?? not weird for me... it's happened a lot.. 


usually happened when I read something that's make me curious.. or make me bad mood... or lack of rest... hehe.. but for today case I believe it was something that make me bad mood.. it's about someone who was important for me... even though we in relationship right now.. 


wait.. i'm thinking how I'm going to write it.. it's kinda complex.. very complex... hmmm....


hahaha... can't find a word to describe it... but it makes me blank.. trying to write it down but can't find a decent way to tell the story without hurting anyone feelings.. aarrrgh.. i hate when I can't think.. damn.. 


I'll see you guys again later.. ciao...

Last day Of Red Hat Enterprise Linux

Yeah... finally it's done.. yiipiieee... I didn't to face extreme traffic jam anymore.. haha... and the best thing is.. tomorrow will be my day off.. taking a break.. hehe..

well today report are about last day of training.. Woke at 5.55AM.. go to training center at 7.10.. and experienced a hellish traffic jam.. The main cause of the jam was an opening of Musyawarah Perencanaan Pembangunan Nasional 2012 by Presiden SBY at Bidakara Building.. All traffic from and to there are being redirect by Police.. and it cause a major jam.. 


After fighting with the traffic, I eat my breakfast.. I think it's Chicken kung pao.. Its taste like it but not the look.. hehe.. weird but i able to finish it.. 

3rd Day Of Training

Huff.... Today I'm exhausted..

I woke up like usual.. around 6 AM.. but when I woke, I still very sleepy.. not like yesterday.. then with hard work I manage to take shower and prepare myself to go training.. even I drove very slow and a little bit late compared yesterday..

And it seems my action have a bad effect.. I'm trap with traffic jam almost every where.. shit.. only late 15 Minutes from yesterday but the result is a nightmare.. I arrived there at 8.30 AM.. but today, the Marketing Staff already came and the office lady already show up to clean the office..

Today, my mom bring me breakfast.. left over from last night dinner... a chili eggplant and a beef teriyaki.. quite nice.. after eat it.. I begin to review yesterday lesson.. and hit a major confuse.. but in the end i able to clear it..

2nd Day of Training

Hi.. nice to see you guys again..

Today is 2nd day of Red Hat Linux Enterprise training.. I woke around 6AM.. my sister knock my door.. hehe.. still lazy to do anything.. so I Just open the door and sneak back under my blanket..  15 minutes later, I took shower and pack my think.. before leaving the house, I wipe my motorcycle.. still dirty but at least the front lamp clear.. hehe..

I drove my motor quite slow.. even taking a different route to go there.. But the effect was beyond my expectation.. I arrive at 7.58AM.. way way too early than yesterday.. I leave the house at 6.50 something.. I even stop at Gas Station just to buy something and spend 5-10 minutes there and still early... wew.. Don't know about tomorrow... wkwk...

1st day of training

Hi!!! I see you again.. hehehe... a late night update before go to bed...

Today is the 1st day of Linux Red Hat Enterprise training... My Bos.. Mr. B.. arrange a training session for me this month.. He planned it long long time ago.. I think at the end of last year..

For this year, he arranged for my partner and me.. the next year will be another team.. I think it will be the programmer team.. when Mr. B give us two option for the Training.. the 1st one are Comptia A+ and the last one are Linux Red Hat Enterprise.. when both of us see the module, we choose Linux..

Corat Coret

hahaha.. it's being quite a while I didn't make any notes.. hehe.. bit lazy to do.. hmm.. to be honest with you guys.. I don't have a habit to write all my thoughts and or feeling.. I just like to keep it for myself..

it's more comfortable.. I don't know why.. but tonight I get this urge to write something.. There are some yelling and angry inside my heart right now.. I'm angry about, well.. almost everything I think.. I can became very angry for stupid thing that happened around me..

But I still don't know what makes me so angry... you can say furious if you want... it's almost drive me to the edge of my insanity.. sometimes I got the urge to explode, to scream and to curse people... It was really-really tempting...

But I struggle till the end, hoping not to do it..

well.. got this weird feeling when listening to love song.. it's make me bit calm.. perhaps I angry about LOVE?? haha.. I really don't know.. but if I angry about it why listening love song make me feel peaceful??

well.. I don't know what but the best thing to do is to listen to love song I guess.. wkwk..

I'll see you when I meet you..

New Job..

Hello guys.. Nice to see you again.. today I'm talking about my new job and how I got it.. I work as IT Technical Support at Multimedia Nusantara University (UMN). It is located at Gading Serpong, Tangerang.

As you guys know, I looked job after my father disagree about my plan go to Australia to take Master Degree.. well.. it's been hard time.. very hard cause I separated with my GF but eventually we seing each other again. I'll discuss it later..

To be honest, it is quite unexpected to get this job.. Because I being called around 1 month after I send my CV and resume.. The story begins with my activities looking job advertisement in newspaper and internet.. I looked for IT Technical Support and suddenly I had feeling to change course.. From hardware orientated to software such as web developer or junior programmer... It's probably had to do with the lack of job advertise in IT Support position and a sudden enlightenment about the career in it..

huehehe....

Hmmm.. it is a very odd title... haha.. can anyone guess why?? well if you guys answered I'm in good mood then you guys are wrong.. haha... Because the right answer is it's been while I didn't write the blog.. haha.. I felt embarrasses. It's been 6 month since my last update.. haha... quite long..

well to update your info, I already got a job...around mid May I signed contract with Multimedia Nusantara University.. It's belong to Kompas Group.. when i got job interview, my parents seem happy.. Because it have great opportunity to work there.. They have a solid system and well known to maintain their employee..

Recent Activities

Hm.. it's being quite while I didn't wrote to you guys.. wkwk.. I'm sorry.. It's kinda lazy now to write a blog.. wkwk.. I don't know why?? maybe it's because I don't have any topics to discuss with you guys.. but for today I try to summarized all the things that happen since my last update...

Since December 2009, my activities are searching for jobs.. Seriously.. this unemployment things start to twitch my nerves.. I mean it guys.. I already start to thinking accepting my Father suggestion to call his friend... Well his friend is the owner of internet service provider and I like to work with networking..

Boring...

This few days I felt boring... Even if I playing game in my Computer I still boring.. I don't know why like that.. Not just that... Now I can't think straightly.. Sometimes I can't think.. Only blank mind in my head.. This is the first time happen to me... First time because it happen for few days not only for few seconds or minutes...

Haha.. weird right.. I don't know what the cause of it.. But the weird thing is I don't mind if that happen but the side effect is I become bored... Very very bored... huahaha.. I don't know what I must do now... well.. you can say I almost insane because this not to do event.. wkwk....

Separation

Every meeting have to end someday and for me the separation happened few days ago. To be more precise is on Thursday, November 26th, 2009. My relationship with my Girlfriend ended up with me as the initiator.

I choose to break up with her because she was  very confuse about what she must do. She very very confuse without my presence there, i think.. and she is a woman who always need attention. And she can't stand long distance relationship.She already told me that since the beginning we go out together.. But I believe people can change even she can change. But my thought was to confident because it seems she can't stand it and unable to resist the feeling which suddenly appear in her heart.

Beside that, I break up with her because I don't want to make her to always cry because she felt guilty if she cheat on me.. and I just hope by break up with her, she can be more happier because she does not have to confuse or pretend she didn't cheat on me and able to make her more enjoy her live at there..

For me, her happiness is the most important thing for me.. Even my friend said why must me who suffer and make the sacrifice.. I didn't answer her objection because it is the best option which I can think at the moment.. And beside that, I believe it is natural thing to sacrifice yourself for the one you LOVE.. even though she didn't LOVE me since she meet the new guy I still care about her condition and implement the option..

PS: it really hard for me to write this blog because I don't have a right words to describe my feeling when I take that option.. so I'm sorry if it is confusing.. ^ ^ and for you who I can't own again, I just hope you HAPPY with him even you can't have him for now.. And I pray to GOD, to ask HIM to help you with your PROBLEM because I can't do anything more for you

From who can't have your LOVE anymore...

Failure

Just now I return from IDP South Jakarta to take my result of IELTS exam on November 14th. Last night I told you guys that I Nervous and worry about my result but confident I will pass. But it seems I too confident. Because I fail.

For this time, I got Overall Score 6.5; it same with others results; but I got 7.5 for reading and listing; It is high 0.5 point, for speaking I got 6 and finally for writing I got 5.5.. I don't know how it happen. Probably it because I got low score for Task 2.

Nervous

Hi.. long time no see you guys.. Today menu is about nervous. I'm nervous and worry about my IELTS result. Two weeks ago, I took IELTS test, this will be my last IELTS exam that I take. I already take the exam FOUR times and the results were the same. It have almost exactly the same outcome  for every time I take the Exam. 

Every time the results were 7 for reading and listening, for speaking between 5.5 to 6.5 and 5 for my writing. It has been very frustrating for me. Take the same test four times and the result were almost the same. But for the last exam I take, it will be different from before. This time I well prepared. Before taking the test, I take a private lesson at English First.

Alone

It almost 2 month since my Girlfriend go to Melbourne to continue her study. My girlfriend left Jakarta on September 9th, 2009. It feel very weird without her in my side. Because for over 1,5 years she and me always go together.

For the first week things happen very smoothly, I don't need to wake early every Sunday. And I can go to my own church.. She is a Christian, and I'm a Catholic. Every Sunday for the past 1 year and 6 months, I always accompany her go to her church at Megamall Pluit, now it called Pluit Village.

Almost Lost a hand

Hmm.. this morning.. (well, not exactly morning, almost daylight.. hahaha..) is cleaning day for all hamster cage.. I got four cages, but only three cages got hamster. One big green cage, one medium cage (aquarium cage) and the last is a small green cage, the fourth cage is a small aquarium cage, usually i used to put the hamster when do cleaning.. The position of the cage are the large cage in back of the medium cage and the small cage is on the top of the medium cage, the small aquarium is on the side of the medium aquarium cage.