Separation

Every meeting have to end someday and for me the separation happened few days ago. To be more precise is on Thursday, November 26th, 2009. My relationship with my Girlfriend ended up with me as the initiator.

I choose to break up with her because she was  very confuse about what she must do. She very very confuse without my presence there, i think.. and she is a woman who always need attention. And she can't stand long distance relationship.She already told me that since the beginning we go out together.. But I believe people can change even she can change. But my thought was to confident because it seems she can't stand it and unable to resist the feeling which suddenly appear in her heart.

Beside that, I break up with her because I don't want to make her to always cry because she felt guilty if she cheat on me.. and I just hope by break up with her, she can be more happier because she does not have to confuse or pretend she didn't cheat on me and able to make her more enjoy her live at there..

For me, her happiness is the most important thing for me.. Even my friend said why must me who suffer and make the sacrifice.. I didn't answer her objection because it is the best option which I can think at the moment.. And beside that, I believe it is natural thing to sacrifice yourself for the one you LOVE.. even though she didn't LOVE me since she meet the new guy I still care about her condition and implement the option..

PS: it really hard for me to write this blog because I don't have a right words to describe my feeling when I take that option.. so I'm sorry if it is confusing.. ^ ^ and for you who I can't own again, I just hope you HAPPY with him even you can't have him for now.. And I pray to GOD, to ask HIM to help you with your PROBLEM because I can't do anything more for you

From who can't have your LOVE anymore...

Failure

Just now I return from IDP South Jakarta to take my result of IELTS exam on November 14th. Last night I told you guys that I Nervous and worry about my result but confident I will pass. But it seems I too confident. Because I fail.

For this time, I got Overall Score 6.5; it same with others results; but I got 7.5 for reading and listing; It is high 0.5 point, for speaking I got 6 and finally for writing I got 5.5.. I don't know how it happen. Probably it because I got low score for Task 2.